Jesus has forgotten

The Lord forgers ours sinfulness and so shall I. Many times we dwell on our sinfulness for a variety of reasons. We many believe because we have commites such sins as abortions, drunkeness, or adultery(in the heart), we believe God will not forgive. In our minds our sinfulness is so bad that not even Jesus will look at us with love. This is absolutely false. When we look at Jesus and he accepts us as we are. He will never look on us with distain for what we have done or failed to do. The world may bring us to continue to think of our sinfulness. Lets face it sinfulness is all around and there many triggers that may remind us of our pasts thoughts and actions. The one thing we must focus on is Jesus Christ. To focus we must find time during the day to remain silence, and just listen to the Love. The love which is forgiveness. Forgiveness forgets our past and renews our hearts! Let us confess what we have failed to do, and live with Jesus in front of us, in our hearts and behind us!

We ARE!

We are beloved Sons or Daughters of Christ. The world does not understand this concept. They want us to define us by how much money we have, who we know. and where we live. My heart does not want to be defined by anything of these things. Yes, these things are good. We do need to live somewhere, have money to live that place and we do need to know good people. However, there is one great who has defined us before we were born. Jesus Christ has defined us as his Daughters and sons. Sometimes our struggles, voices from others, etc tell us we are something else. We must never listen to these voices if they are not in line with the will of God. The will of God is we must listen to him and do our best to faithfully follow this voice. The world can be loud and try to drown that voice out. These voices can come through the television, classmates, or people who are close to you. For us to remain in Christ to stay defined by Christ is to be our survival in this world. We must listen and be still for when we are still the Lord speaks and tells us who we are. We are made in the image of the beautiful God. This is the truth and the truth will set us free.

Proof we love

Sin hurts the one we love.Our Lord becomes sadddened when we turn our hearts away from him. We also may feel quilt and disconnected from Christ and others. These proves we are in love with Christ, and desire to serve him. If we did not feel anything afterwards we have no connection with our Lord. These feelings are like being caught up in a fight with a friend. After the fight we feel immediately guitly because we know we hurt a loved one. This guilt with not remain in our hearts because Christ remains. Christ will take away our guilt because he is Love. Love can take away all guilt. We are his prodigal Children in whom he is well pleased!!!

In the moment

Every momnet is precious in the eyes of the Lord. However, we  become caught up in our emotions and do not believe the Lord is present. This occurs when we dive into sinful ways. At the moment of a snort, drink or escaping through a website that is all we are focused. That moment nothing else matters. Following that moment we beat ourselves up because we felt lonely in the moment. there is one problem with the statement. We are never alone. We are just afraid the Lord to see what we feel. We believe our emotions will not be cared for and seen by Christ in a positive way. However, this is unture the Lord will see all emotions and turn them into joy. He will hold our hearts, and love us with whatever we will. He knows our emotions and will care for them as any father would. He is our great heavenly father who created us out of his hands. Whenever you feel scared or worried about emotions remember the Lord knows what you are feeling and thus there is no need to feel afraid of what he will say. He knows our emotions and would never look down on what we feel!! We are all beautiful in the Eyes of the Lord. Let us never be afraid to tell him our sadness and concerns for our heavely knows!! He will always tell us WE are beautifully and wonderfully made!!!!

Lean on scripture

SCripture is inspired by the Lord. It is the truth which gives us hope and words to live by. Sometimes we fall short of these words. We fall short because our  culture does not want to follow the truth. They want us to believe in distorted love and killing babies is ok. These are not the choices of the heavenly father. Our heavenly father wants us to live as treat everything he created with pure love. To conquer distorted love we must turn to the song of songs. The songs of songs is a book in the bible which shows the erotic love of the beauty of love as it was meant to be. We must focus on this book to see love as it was meant to be. However, to conquer other struggle we may ask where we should turn in the bible for answers. Turn to the Holy Spirit and he will guide you to the specific scripture he intends for your heart. Sometimes he will talk to you and give you peace from struggles with these scriptures. These scriptures will lead all to the truth. The truth may hurt but whenever there is a cruxifiction there will be a resurrection. The resurrection will come indeeded. We must stick to the truth for the truth will set our country free.

Being defined

For many of years people have been defined by what they look like and not who they were as people. Many times a person dresses, and acts a certain way because of their circumstances. These thoughts came to mind while watching a documentary discussing the novel To Kill a Mockingbird. In this Novel Atticus Finch is asked to defend an African American who is believed to have committed a crime. Throughout the trail it is realized Tom Robinson is not guilty however, due to the times he is found guilty and sent to prison.

Besides the trial being an important aspect of the novel Finches young daughter Scout. She loves to dress in pants and play outside. Many tried, including her father to become more of a lady. However, despite their efforts she continued to fight at school and wear overalls while playing outside. Many of these things occurred because of the lack of a mother figure growing up. When a person is young they pick up traits from their parents. Because she was raised predominately by her father she dressed more masculine.

Face value culture would treat her as something to be desired. However, I see her as a broken child. Because of the lack of a mother figure she was trying to find out who she was. She wanted to someone to love and guide her. Fitch was helpful to this aspect. He was smart, intelligence and new right from wrong. Every time Scout fought she would go in his arms to learn a lesson about justice and standing up for the truth. By doing this she was being formed. She was formed through the trial, and school.

If you look deeper at the life of Scout you see a girl who is trying to find herself rather than a girl who is not dressed appropriately. She is beautiful because she is looking, questioning and wanted to grow!

Man cannot live off facebook alone

Man cannot live by bread alone but every word (Mat 4:4).This scripture came to me as I was really struggling to keep my lent resolution. Prior to Lent almost every day I would spend hours on Facebook looking at statuses and asking for support when I felt lonely. However, each time after I was done with a conversation or looking at statutes there would be a feeling of loneliness still in my heart. At the start of lent I was half-assing it. In my head/heart I knew I wanted to and was going to cheat on Sundays. However, when Sunday came around I would use the excuse its Sunday and days are a resurrection.  After using for a few minutes I would just be on there for a while, and end up using the next day. Well, each subsequent day I gave into Facebook, even though I reached out to people I felt more lonely and disconnected to Christ. This past week my mind set about my Lenten feelings changed.

I had an opportunity to chaperone/attend a youth rally this past weekend. I really didn’t know what to expect, except we were bringing a few kids to praise and worship Jesus. Well, we entered the room full of kids/adults some wanting to people there while others forced for a variety of reasons. At the start of the rally Bob Rice started off with a concert. The music was wonderful; full of love of God. After the opening music Ennie Hickman brought Christ to his thoughts, and invited all to be open to the day. Following the talk were inflatables. Inflatables are gigantic bouncy houses; some were obstacle course while others a basketball game and jousting game. Even though this was mainly for kids the youth leader and I hung out with the kids and acted like kids. Following my exercise we were asked to attend a session in the gym. I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. Well, we sat down and learned Ennie Hickman was going to give a talk on prayer. First opened with prayer then he apologized for the talk not being a list/direction way of prayer. Then he opened his heart and began to speak of his experiences with God’s love and forgiveness. During his talk he brought up to thoughts that sparked my heart. For a while I have been struggling with getting back up after I sin and thinking that God did not want me back. Well, he used his heart by saying God isn’t there to keep you down and yell at you but convince you/encourage you to keep you in his embrace and love. He also spoke about how beautiful it is to sit in gods lap and not placing on any expectations.

At the end of the talk he encouraged all to come and speak with him if they felt inclined. Well, I always take the opportunity to grow in my relationship with Christ. I immediately walked up to him, waited for the announcements to be finished and started to speak. We shook hands and I asked “how do I not intellectualize Gods love”. He told me there was no problem in doing so. AS the conversation progressed he asked me I knew was solitude was. I said I had heard of the world. He then mentioned loneliness. My heart was tugged by the Holy Spirit. He knew I was lonely, and knew what need to be spoken of. He told me to seek Loneliness as a gift from God, and as my heart continued to let Christ into the Loneliness I would enter in deeper solitude with him, decrease comparing myself to others, and be happy in myself. I ask if my emotions were ok. He said yes, anything I feel is ok. At the end of the conversation I felt good, told my youth leaders I was going to confession, was handed a map and left the gym. While in line I helped girls to prepare their hearts for confession. After a while I entered the confession. My heart was open and honest to God; was told I was loved sinner and to be patient while waiting for Gods will to be known. After my soul was cleaned the bounces continued with the kids. Bouncing was making me tired and hungry. Fortunately, after bouncing was lunch. I sat with kids and make sure they were safe. Following lunch was an Amazing concert given my Bob Rice! Being able to jump up and down, seeing others love Christ is always a wonderful time. Seeing all to witness to Christ was a touch of the God significant love and glory! The conference continued with the bishop presiding over the mass alongside two amazing priests as homilist. As always the mass taught me about the Love of Jesus, and a moment to consume our Lord by mouth. Following mass was an hour of beautiful adoration. A time to see Jesus, love Jesus, and listen to JESUS!! The Lord just let me, along with others sit in front of him. My heart felt nothing but love and didn’t worry about anything around me but JESUS!!

Following the end of adoration my group left the conference. On our way home we talked about the day and everything we encountered!! I mentioned I was struggling to keep my Lenten and he confirmed what the Lord stated early, “Get up and keep going”. The car ride ended, and I made it home.

I will continue to fight for truth, love, and live off of the word of God not Facebook!!!