Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Listen to Christ

While I was reading a book called Abandonment to Divne Providence I came across this sentence which struck my heart. The sentence states, "We want to know what he said to others and do not listen when he speaks to ourselves". This is my reflection

We are unique. I am unique. Our struggles make us unique. I keep trying to be like others. Trying to fit in where others have fallen in. God has created as space for me. A place no one has created because God, in his perfect plan has already created a space for me. A place for me to do his will. No one can repeat as I cant repeat others. I am unique.

God created me to help accomplish his will on Earth. I have to follow when he speaks to me. It may be through a person or a book, or directly from me to him.It may be for me to enter a religious community where we can lift each other in prayer.  His will is for me to listen and follow him by doing the best I can to not become caught up in the world of death.

There are like mindede people in this world. We are all striving to follow his will, and to tune out what is not of God. The voices of death tell us we are alone, we are no good, or God does not exist. But the voice of life tells us we are united to him, making us uinted to each other.

We have one purpose. That purpose is to strive to do Good, fight what is evil and pray for one another.

Let us reach out to christ before all else there is on this Earth. We must listen above all else. Pray, listen and say connected to Christ. You are not alone.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Advice that touches my heart!!!

If it is not his will that you enter this community, then they will not take you, and you will be ok with it.
Because in the end, it's all about doing his will
and no one will look down on you for having tried.
And no one will look down on you for not having been accepted
(Father Peter Pilsner)

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Broken to Beauty

My greatest fear is that I will forget where I came from. My heart and my God desires me to help people see they are beautiful Daughters of Christ regardless of where they have been in their lives. Growing up I did not care about my appearance, and cared less about dressing like a girl. Throughout my school days I wore baggy clothes, and felt comfy. However, I did not have many friends and I didnt know how to be feminine. I wished I had knew of people who I could look up to. In todays world there are some woman young girls can look up to. They include; The Virgin Mary, Leah Darrow, Crystallina Evert, The Dominican Sisters Mary Mother of the Eucharist, many other religious sisters, and other woman on EWTN. Growing up I wish I reached out to someone who saw me as a Daughter of Christ. Because of me not reaching out I feel into the selfishness of the world and gave into disordered relationships. As I am healing my heart and not giving in to Christ I wonder if I will forget what I felt like to be broken.

As I have been praying and talking with others the Lord reminded me he will bring up my story when it is his will. He will have me use my story in his way and not mine. He will help me see my beauty, give my heart confidence in him, and help me to preach he is the one to follow. The Lord doesnt want me to forget where I came from but he wants me to be deep in him for when my story is brought up I can feel the emotions and not punish myself for my past. He has told me not to punish myself for my past does not define me but will be used to help others see what is good, pleasing and perfect.

Others may feel the same as I did; lost confused, perhaps friendless. We, as woman need to preach, live out, and desire to be better woman to help those who has lost their femininity. I will continue to grow into my femininity. I may not desire to wear a dress or a skirt constantly, but desire to be who Christ desires me to be. A person who loves Christ, others, and herself.

As St. Augustine says "There is no saint without a past, and no sinner without a future"!!

I am a modern day female version of St Augustine to a point!!! :)

Friday, January 6, 2012

Answering our prayers

Many times a day we ask Christ do help us on a particular manner. Then after a while of relates to wating we believe the Lord has not answered our prayers. However our lack of understanding correlates to how many did not understand Christ when he spoke about Easter . When he was telling others he will destroy the temple and in three days he was going to raise it up he was speaking about the ressurection.Like the ressurection we misinterpet Gods will. We are looking for our will and not looking for deeper answers. We may be asking him if we are called to a particular order or mission. In our questions we ask where we are called. Because we feel he is giving us signs for a particular place we focus on that place. However, he may be giving us signs for a different purpose; a purpose to grow closer to HIM. For example, everything many watch Leah Darrow, or listen to beautiful missionaries you are not necessarily called to mission but you are called to be what they preach; ie Daughters/Sons of Christ or to serve the Lord in truth and love. So, the next time you ask the Lord a question be ready to look for an answer on a deep level!!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Prison Break

I broke out of a prison inside
It hurt my heart to stay
The chains are broke
My heart feels fine

Their is a breath in my heart
A freedom to the soul
It is free to be me

The world will not dictate
The world will not listen
The world does not know the truth

We are free to breath
We are free to live
We are free to be

The prison inside will not remain
For the Lord will stay within
For thus he will always forever remain

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Live with Christ

Let us Live with Christ

This is a poem compiled while listening to Christ

You are leading me to your great Glory
It wont be under big lights
It will be under your arms

In my heart
Around my world
You will serve me and will love me

This is my will
This is my plan
Your are my desire
I desire you

You will serve me
You are my daughter

You will I love
You will I protect
You will I nurture

The world is tearing you apart
It is not your heart
You must run from the world
Run to me and live the truth
For the truth will live on in you

The truth is love
The truth is life
The truth is a way to peace

Nothing will be greater
Nothing will be deeper
Nothing more beautiful

I and you
You and me
Together will we remain forever