Fight

My heart is continuing to fight for Christ, and truth. The Lord speaks to me through writing. Its beautiful to be able to keep in front of me what he says to my heart. He desires I spread these words to the world. I have written countless poems of my journey. Tonight I will share a poem that fits what my heart feels tonight. The poem was started  a few months go but the Lord guided me to finish it tonight!!! Oh how wonderful the Lord works and speaks to us~

My heart is filled with Joy
It is emmeshed with the Lord
This is the Lords Joy
This joy is no one else's
This Joy is the Lord alone
He is Love
He is Joy
He is my hearts desire

Why did I go out to the world for Joy
The world told me so
It brought me to tears and anger
I ached more than I loved
It was sadness
It was death
The world was not my desire

The Lord brought me to my knees
He brought me to tears
He told me he was the Joy
He was my love
He was my joy
He was my hearts desire

The happiness did not last long
The world called me and I chose
My heart screamed th the Lord "Why"

I began to cry and feel
The Lord responded with Love
I cried out with utter sorrow
He responded "I desire you"

Listen

Being present with Christ is what I long for. Feeling nothing is wrong and sitting in front of Christ is a desire of my heart. Where is this where he desires me to sit in front of his body, blood, soul and divinity. How does he want me to use my gifts? By running a marathon you will not God. A person will find God by sitting and listening. The world needs to sit and listen. They are listening to the crowd. The crowd says one thing while Christ says another. Many times the Lord will tell us one thing but its terrifying to follow because it is against the Crowd. Never be afraid to follow and listen to Christ. The voice of the Lord is quiet, but peaceful and its better than following the Crowd.

The dignity of the woman

Being called Daughter of the father is beautiful. Many woman struggle with this concept. The world tells us we are to be successful by making a lot of money, and living in the most expensive house with the most posessions. however our beauty does not lie in things but lies in Christ. Speakers such as Leah Darrow and Crystallina Evert speak about this throughout the country. Through these speakers we learn we can rise from feeling broken daughters to feel like beautiful daughters. First thing we must learn and internalize is wherever we have been the Lord Jesus Christ will love us underconditionally and welcome us home; to his home; to his heart. Second, to stop watching shows such as Americas Next top Model, and Make me a supermodel. These shows tell us your bodies are the most important thing and are meant to be used. During these shows they have weigh ins, and measurement times and when a girl is over probably size 2 thats too big for the modeling industry. No one should think their body is not beautiful. Any body is beauty. God created us all in his image and likeness and for that reason alone we are beautiful. Let us pray to the Lord for him to tell us we are beautiful. :) For the next fews days I will speak about my struggle with my femininity and how I came to become closer to loving my femininity!!!!

My heart

During pray this poem was inspired by Christ

Its you and me Lord
Our hearts connected
Two hearts beating as one

It pulls back
The love feels strong
Can this heart keep this feeling
Its begins to cry

The Lord reaches out
The heart releases the pull
Jesus touches and loves the heart
He places it within me again

The Love Reigns
The feelings are strong
It feels hope
It feels Love
It feels understanding

Nothing matters but the heart beating as one
This feelings shall remain
It will not die
It will stay strong

Strong to fight for the truth
To fight rejection
To fight lonliness
To fight hate
The truth shall reign
For the hearts beat as one

The Truth!!!

My heart desires to serve Christ in truth. The truth has been hard to find. It has been a journey of tears, anger, confusion and then slowly but surely happiness and peace. The truth of Christ is this; He Loves, continues to love and will never stop loving. We know this by the acts he show us in our every day lives. He loves us by giving us a place to sleep, food to eat, people who love us, and by creating us. We can live the truth by being pro-life, supporting the sanctity of marriage (anti-same sex marriage), loving the sinner not the sin, and resolve to confess our sins to our loving Christ who will forgive everything we do!! :)

Patience

My heart desires patience,. It does not like to wait. The Lord know this and he gives me the patience to get through my homework, and the rosary. Its hard to wait for the right time. The right time may not be in my time but I know it is in the Lords. He is preparing me for deeper intimacy with him. He has a plan for my impatience waiting. He will turn this into a deep vocation of love and compassion. My hope is with him. I will continue to pray and be his beautiful obedient daughter!!!

This is a poem that I feel encompasses my vocation
I like food so I am called to fast
I like sleep so I am called to wake at 5 AM
The computer is not pleasurable so he will take it away
My heart desires silence so this he will grant
But where is this place you call
Whatever it is I will go
Wherever it is I will go
All or Joy
All for God

Rosary

The presence of the Rosary is calming. Its slows the breath and brings you peace that only a mother can give!!! :)